Doing okay
Ugh, I fell off the earth again. Sorry. See, I spend all day on a computer at work, the idea of going on the computer again at night is just not appealing. I had a bad day but over all I'd say I'm doing quite well. I've been getting weekly procrit shots to stimulate my bone marrow into red blood cell production and I've been getting weekly IV transfusions of iron. Today was the third one. I'm almost in the range of normal! Its taken over a year but I'm almost there. :) I think my basic problem now is us dealing with my miserable stomach. As I said, we didn't have a good day today, but I'm find I have to sit it out and can't leave work just because I feel awful for a few hours. I know I'm doing better because I'm starting to find interest in things, like my beloved cooking classes. I can't take them yet, but I'm thinking about it, and planning that maybe in a few more months I'll be able to go back. And maybe I can take some adult education classes. I can't do anything after work yet, including work (I leave right at 5) but eventually I'll be able to do things. I'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel!
I have another CT scan coming up in a couple of weeks. I might not be as convinced that THIS TIME its going to come back positive. I'm beginning to relax a little. Which isnt to say that I don't believe I'll get cancer again. I still believe it. But maybe it won't be THIS month. Maybe I don't have it NOW.
You know what? It doesn't feel like my life is as much ON HOLD as it has been. I feel more like part of the working community, even as I still feel 100% at home at Dana Farber. And I know I don't do well at work on the days I go to Dana Farber because everything is so inconsequential to me. But I should be okay tomorrow. After all, it'll be friday.
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8:48 PM
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